Have you been hurt by someone words...? yesss! i did experience it and it really hurtful tooo hear someone say like that. trying really hard to hide those how hurt you are actually was nothing. if you get to used hear it often then you wont feel soo hurt when you hear it and it just encourage you more to became stronger and give you strength to fight on. Siting in the corner of table make me think alot that half of my life i been spending in the most hurt place and trying to get a way to let it goooo. The fact that i look n very cruel it because i want to protect my feeling, heart but sometimes we can't expect people to understand what actually we need them to know n feels..but all this questions suddenly come out make me realize that this is such a stupid way and i don't know that i been hurt everybody by this way. i though this is a place to protect and make everyone feel safe. never really know that the fact is for all i did i never really have a bad though just wanna make sure that we can be sit in a good place without fight. but i think i really such a bad person because all of this just how i feeling and it should be done by that but now everything is soo wrong and i feel that this is such a bad..i trying to help ot out but everything is misunderstand n now i have to take all those blame. but honestly in thousand time i did giviing such a bad,bad,bad impression to them. never knew that being like thing,talk,helping and act like this really get people hurt by my action. I did regret it but time wont turn back for me to do sometimes to make it better. only things i can do is forgive me and this time i will waiting outside of the boxes it small but at least this is a better comfort zone for me and us. i really dunno that i was been a closed person in this situation with you guys but i feel soo much guilty n feels that betrayed by this. but i never blame cus i know what it's is and i did expect it from the beginning of this. With all this matter feeling for such a long time i think i did realize something which is super super double crazy answer which is I'M the only person never step forward to let goo what i been hold inside and i been kept my sky turn deep..deeep in darkness and i never see that how dark was my color now and it supposed to be Bright like others people too. This is what have kept me soo long to come out from my darker day and it make me dreaming in my land without knowing it, it almost cover all my life with deep..deeply color in my life which is almost I can't climb up to see the brightens color of my mylife. I almost gone by this dark winds~~~~
Honestly, i not saying i a pro person but i did give some advice to my friends, family but the fact if for me i always the person am i good enough to advice someone life that really need my advice while i the one struggle in my own way and advice myself...? I dunno why but that the true and i can't help my self to figure it out. how weird life can be sometimes. we can't understand how was it but surely sometimes it can be good news n bad news for us. Come with knowing this now, i feels i can really found a road which already wait me outside there for me get ride of it~ i dunno how mylife be now but for sure i will get back all my those dark life and turn it on my brighter days.
"I can't help it back again but i can live my every single day with great and left all those dark days and EMPTY my feelings for the next chapter i will went through. I dunno if it's gonna easy or hard but for sure i will get through it and i know god will always stay beside me. it did such a long way to realize but hey...hey...hey..Never too late too realize when you still can breath in this earth. Hehehehehe:) "
Sooo i excited what will wait for me outside there and i sure it will a goood day for me and Here COME the new of me ALICE!!!ALICEgambateh!!!! U CAN DO ITttttttttt....!
I get a feeling that 2012 might my years! hehehe:P
Okay! I gotta admit that i did have a wide forehead actually....hehe:)
Hahaha~~~♥♥Snap my self in this CAMERA really rolling me too deeply already. haha:) U can see how crazy I am. but i not really good in taking picture with Angles soo U can consider this is the training lesson for me to learn it. hihihi:) Cus i hear when you holding or carry camera around, you have to know each angles n side which one is the best part when you taking a picture. so i think i have to learn that n it really work actually. Cus not every angles n side really look nice on me.. hehe:) soo gotta work on it! hehe:P bt no matter which side,angles,part u taking is Every pieces of the picture will look GREAT N PRETTY with a good CAMERA! hahah:) AND ofcourse doesn't mean have to be EXPENSIVE one.. hehee^_^ Cus nowadays everything is soo modern n we have alot of those APPLICATIONS PHOTOSHOP which can make you look better on those picture and u can edit2 more n put whatever u want. So basically everything is already been prepared for all we need to look good on picture. hee:) n YESSS!! i did using some of the application of my picture too look good n preeeety! hehehehe:) Sooo Dont worried!
And I hope everyone doing well in this wonderful day:) and still in CNY mooood! hehehehe:)
really need to haunted some Ang Pow noooow! Have to get it alot! hahhaha:D
soo FRIENDS get ready gonna Haunted you house for my next Ang Pow. :P
Yessss! I just brought my very first Accessories which is veryVintageeeeloook to me and iREALLY love it! Before this i never really bought a accessories for my self sooo this time really something new n ofcourse i really love it! hehe:) n beside bough a new accessories, I also brought a super cuteee n the things that i always want to have it. it actually Tadaaaaaaaa EIFFEL TOWER!! N I beeen looking for it for a long time already! soo found it was super greattt feeelings! Hahahaha:D
Have a wonderful days and HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR ! :)
♥Woooow! Helllo 2012!!! n happy New Years! hehehe:P ♥
here a snaps of mine picture for this new years acting crazy with camera!! haha♥♥
Okay!!This year I'm 22
year old!! OH NOOOOO i getting old man! dislike it! hehe:) hope this
year is my year!!! Hahahahaha:D bring more lucky,happiness and ofcourse a
great day for meeee.. hehe:) *fingercrossed** Amen. well...this year
has to plan alot of things specially my future and achieved those my
list goal! haha:P and hopefully will be a better year for me. i mean
seriously! have tooo.. hahaha:D but there is one things for sure that TIME GONE SO FAST n here we go again with a new month n guess what couldn't even realize that it actually left for a few more days for CHINESE NEW YEARman!
what the crazy time goo. huhuhuhuhuu what the crazy time, feeling and
minds at this years. But come to this years make me realize many things
although it just first month at this years but seriously i realize a few
things in my life now that i getting close to the answer for my
questions now like how can it be sooo true..! but thank god that i get
this feeling when i still can get ready for the time has come so that i
wont feel much burden n pain for it. I dunno if this a right way to
describe it but i will always remind myself that i should have this
preparation for my next chapter of life. so i wont be soo depressed of
it. but it good actually to be alert for whole the times so i can have a
space to think about my very next step to make a living by myself
ofcourse not easy but soon after time pass out i sure i will comfortable
by it. and hope that wont be soo hard to dooo. *fingercrossed* but i
wont denied all the possible for this feels but yeah...for now i preeety
sure there wont be a chance for me. like people used to"WHAT YOU FEELS ACTUALLY THAT MIGHT AANSWER FOR IT" soo now i feel that is. hrmm....the biggest worries actually i has now is MY FUTURE. OOOHgosh..i dont even know how i gonna find my truly future now since i
22 now n really struggles for it and have no idea what it gonna look
like from now. i really need a counseling for my life now! god...please
learn to the road that will shine my future and please give me strength
to get through this time. Amen~
And still have to wish HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012 and May this years bring a more double happiness and joy to us. ~Much love form meeee. ♥♥♥♥