Tuesday, 30 December 2014

30.12.2014



Yes, it's 30.12.2014, in 24 hours we will celebrate #NewYear2015, wow! mixed feelings, feeling like can't believe that we/world/earth actually going to enter a new beginning again which is #2015, 

everyone is just overwhelmed with this 24 hours coming new year 2015. 

All the blogger is posting about coming year planning and as well the closing of 2014 in less 24 hours now, so i gonna do it too! :P 

1. Went to my mother hometown in Indonesia, come back on this early years 2014, definitely one of my precious moment.. meeting my first time Grandmother, uncle, auntie, cousin and relatives.. just amazing... check my post about thisJourney To Hometown "

2. I doing fine, i mean 50/50, as i been searching jobs now so i hoping a better option, career, future and as well better place to earn money too. *Fingercrossed* 

3. so far so good, Healthy is most what i fear, as my wishing is my mom, dad, little sister *brother always stay in very good healthy. as this year kinda lot bad news regarding healthy issues so pray for them always in good healthy. *especially, my grandma* 

4. I thankful with everything's happened on this year #2014, Up and Down i going this road i stilll thankful to god for giving a every single day living alive and comfort every happy and sorrow i have in my life now till today. i just can't stop thank you what he done for me. although i angry sometimes towards he but i know he will always beside me. 

5. #2014, definitely one of the years, we been really sad about, as we been shock by all the news of aviation, missing, shoot down..missing/crush.., blood war, thousand people killed through this war included kids, flooding worst where thousand people loss they house, and more etc..i pray for the best for every situation we went through.. may someday we all in this earth will living harmony, peace and LOVE

6. LOVE story, well.. uo to now, i still doing great by myself, and i just not rushing into my love life, so i just gonna leave it to god. if there someone for me then send it faster! haha 

7. so another year, my social network is getting bigger and crazyy! haha, i got Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Weibo, Tuding, Meipai, etc... oh god! so hard to manage yet soo funnn can get the inspire by everyone!! :) 

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so, how about you guys story of the year...



Long Way Down

                               

  
Selfie after back from hangout with my friends! :) 

I have been lazy blogger now, i mean so much is going on in my life, chasing the dream, future, career, just almost everything's in my life i need the most. time is ticking and went so fast everything's is like you so moving fast now...so ofcourse the pressure is getting high man! 

So how you take this end of year celebration ?...i sure there many party going on, open house for the new year 2014, right.. well..as for me..still not sure but i guess we going to stay at homeee and waiting the times and see the firework...just the very time activities like we used to do. but of course i hope next year will celebrate in different ways.. just hope next year will better year and luck for me. Spending my moment last week of 2014, with my families and friends. it's fun night get to hangout with my friends, talk about everything's is going in our life as well hoping for next year #2015, so it very thoughtful n meaning night. it good to seem them again before end of year 2014. went home kinda late but i can;t fall sleep maybe tooo much of COLA as whole day i drink cola. hahaha 


" Lately, I've thinking soo much, as i gonna enter my coming age 25 years old, so much responsibility to take, so much thing's i have to figure out about my future plan. so i can;t deny there really a big burden for myself.. it's like i can't feel my body sometimes, cus mine brain start not working anymore and i feel empty and blank out. it's soo long way down for me..

Laying on my bed, thinking and count the day and figure out what i gonna do with my life. i need to find strength, motivation, determined,tough, stronger  for myself.. it been a month now, i sleepy late sometimes i spend hour, hour, hours in my bed thinking nothings 

and time was just pass and till morning, then i went to sleep.. 
that how i spend my daily life now... it such a wasted, 

when you brain is blank, you action is doubtful, your minds is nothing's, 
everything is not going on whatever you do. 
cus you living in UNIVERSE only you exits in it. 
and it called " OBLIVION " fall in your world.. 
it easy to forgive people cus you can but
when come to yourself, and myself, my life, my world

FORGIVE is die for me cus i waste the times where i should make it
and it gone without anything's could ever REPLACE cus i soo die with the times it gone forever..

where it never come back AGAIN.... Just never again "


Sunday, 28 December 2014

HAPPY MERRY CHRISTMAS 2014 & HAPPY NEW YEAR 2015!


OHHHHH MYYY! it's Christmas time people! sorry late post as been quite busy with myself thinking and been quite busy with to planning my year #2015, searching job, clean my room, well..it just a start to pack and make some change my my come year #2015. anyway, my #Christmas been quite soo well, wonderful, awesome and MERRY, MERRY, MERRY CHRISTMAS! hahaha 

beside it been great, somethings happened, on 24th December, on our way to attend Church, there was a accident but all i can said is i thank to god that me and my family safe as well the person hit our car also safe but unfortunately, he not responsible on what he done, yet throw shit word and after that trying to blame us and after collect all his things then run away. ooh! what the scary and frustrate night we have but thanks god everyone is safe. 

and after done the church, we straight went home and celebrate our father Birthday and we just feel, and me could't feels CALM anything but i kept saying thanks god for keep safe us and thank for this wonderful #ChristmasEve i still got my family stay together. but that night i can't sleep well, maybe still thinking about the accident and at the same times, i feel excited too cus it #Christmas ! :) 

after awhile, i went to bed and fall sleeeeep! haha 

soooo wake up, wake up, wake up! it 25th December 2014, it's Christmas, Jingle bell, Jingle Bell, Jingle alll the way.. 

ohmy! i sooo excited whenever i hear Christmas song.. wen to church to celebrate the Christmas and straight went home and spending my times, watching the #Christmas Movie on Astro Channel Tv, 

i mean, who doesn't love sit at home watching those Christmas movie, iT such a fantasy for kids and as well to me (after all, i grow up) but hey..hey..although just spending Christmas at home but still feelings the happiness and awesome! 

Probably next year will plan somethings different beside staying at hooomeee. haha will see how since i gonna be 25 year old! my god! i getting old..shit! but hope next year will really a good2, awesome year for me.. *Fingercrossed* 

Christmas been a wonderful for me, although it simple way for me to celebrate but as long the one i loved always stay safe, healthy and be happy. that the best Christmas gift i could ask for. although, secretly i wish there a SANTA CLAUSE.. hihihi


And thank you to my little sister this #Christmas Gift, it soo wonderful and awesome for me. god bless you! as well my family! 

                                 
This taken during 24th December 2014, after church.. 


My mom and myself...hahaha, we don;t look alike right... 

MERRY, MERRY CHRISTMAS to all my reader and followers. Thanks for you all support and comments during this year! :) 


Here come our family photo during Christmas Day! :P 

that how i spend my #Christmas and i hope you did have a good time with your family's :) 

till the next post.. :) 

Tuesday, 23 December 2014

Countdown To Christmas 2014


Jingle, jingle bell, Oh noo! Are we Ready to face this #Christmas which will happen in 24 hours Christmas Eve! and and 7 days more we going to countdown for #NewYear2015

For sure, Everyone would be agreed with me , for the past few years included this year, time flies so fast as so fast and we did what we could to make sure we didn't wasted the times each of our life, right? as for me, yes, still unemployed yet and i wasted too much time AGAIN! HUH.. I have no idea what is going on, i regret it soo much in my rest of my life but i just don't wanna regret over and over again so i gonna accept it cool ways and work even harder each years to paid back those time i wasted. 

so, so, Let's talk about Christmas month, week, day, eve and countdown
it all aboout Decoration tress, lighting's, gift, gift and being happy! haha but too bad 
Malaysia noo Snow for it well... at least you have to travel to some country to feel exactly what Christmas feels like with snow. at least 1 times in your lifetimes. isn't ?

Every year December , we sure look forward #Christmas times, maybe because we still live up to SANTA CLAUS where we hear the stories from books or movie. oh god! it still firely live in my mind and every December of Christmas i will secretly look for the gift that Santa claus might send me! hahahah i still living in that fairy tale of Christmas Santa Clau. i mean, i gonna live it with till i getting older... although i knew it never happen but still good to have this kind of dream. :P 

The Christmas Trees is everywhere, aww! it sooo mood of Christmas now, and ofcoure not forget to say that i did put the Christmas tree in my house and i just cant stop seeing it especially the light is ON! HUHUHU.. feeling like wanna Christmas everyday..i hope mine Christmas will get better and better each years in future.. :)

and yeah i did manage get some photo of the Christmas trees n shopping malls which is very inspired me to make my own Christmas trees decor next year.. haha 


Let's the Picture do the talk here: 





Here some Picture of the Christmas tree's in my house! :P Just small and simple. hehehe but gonna get the big one next year! hahaha





and as well, my own Christmas Tree in my room! i just done decor it yesterday night so i hope you love it! :) 








Taddaaaaaa! Hope You guys Have a wonderful Christmas with the one you love.

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR 2014!  

hohohohohoho.....


Sunday, 21 December 2014

STAY..


Yeah! Welcome to DECEMBER 2014! oh god! Times flies so fassst! i wish it never this fast but it soo damn fasssssssst..Just feeling there no enough times for everything;s now. oh god! i wish i could STOP the time now. I wish! 

okay, today i gonna talk a long post here since soon we gonna enter #2015 yea! soo two weeks more left before end 2014

The dream, The future, The success, etc, is all we need to done and make it come true as each year. but lots of sacrifice have to done either lost and gain. Sometimes we just couldn't live without any hope we holding up. who never went such a horrible experience in the life we living, We can't say NO or YES easily as we have to make such a consideration where we gonna put alot effort to make it. be honest, Living the Life without any hope is such a HOPELESS as i went through the most in my 20's now, i really not sure about it but there is somethings the way we move. cus one words define everything's "STAY" :

                      "STAY too long same way
                       STAY exactly same
                       STAY for Royalty
                       STAY for Giving up
                       STAY for Love
                       STAY for never looking back
                       STAY, STAY, STAY...

The beginning of the year #2014 is all i did was "STAY" for such a long times for along way. nothing more bright then what you could said, cus i really makes myself "STAY too much longer then what I've planning. it like take and giving. The reason, it's so funny to say but i truly BROKEN then before. Cus it took me to much STAY and BROKEN at same time.. i would never imagine where i been living now, cus i don't dare to see again, again, again.. to hard to open my eyes and rearrange what I've lost no matter it still light.. because of YOU "STAY". CHANGE and SAVE would be the best way to make those lost became even better in future...




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Thursday, 4 December 2014

BLANK WHITE December



When we all start talk about LIFE, we just back to the basic where we are feeling emotional about everything. It hard to say anything sometimes when it's come to said  "It's Okay"... 

I believe too, we just the basic and normal when come to talk everything happened on your LIFE right...we find a thousand way or words just to encourage our self to make better in our life. but sometimes it just not work cus we can't fight everything's to back normal as before we feel. it felt so depression, YOU get the feeling the most worst of your life then you just gonna stick everything you got to make things gone and away.

 i could just say that, i not forever sad about things happen on my life but i feel so unfair that why i must go through this worst time while i never did somethings horrible to anyone. it not pleased feeling but it very hard to resist it. YOU though you can but the true is you just never make it gone forever, yes, you moving on but when it come the times you living, 

YOU will back to remembered those times. 

Living in life, there a worst feeling you must live to, cus that is your motivation, inspiration, strength you to live strong and tough! EVERYONE, EVERYBODY can do it well, but its always became the most pain feeling. 

we always wonder how much longer we need to endure the pain we have, how much longer we need to pretend being strong, how much longer we need to be patience every times. it not easy to be OKAY while actually we NOT okay.  

Sooo much dream we want to make it happened but not every dream will just happened like you wish to. YOU work hard, do harder, wish harder, pray harder but yet never come true. hah.. it really tricking you sometimes. the most comfortable feeling is when you start cry, cry, cry and lay on your bed and hugs your favorite dolls or pillow, that is my most and heal my sadness and pain cus it my comfortable therapy, i need someone but i don't need someone to make me feel better cus i just know myself too well and how i gonna feel make myself be happy again... 

B'cus i been through the worst worst things in my life by my own self, and it's teach me to became a better person. I hate it to said but i proud to myself that i can go through this road by myself. 

All i can said, it never easy road man to go but believe me, it teach me how to being tough and patience in my every movement and action in my every single step in life... 


"Live well in order to live faithfully, 
Living stronger like each of your bone's"
by. Alice C. 


Till the next post..
XOXO