Monday, 15 July 2013

It's Matter.

yes, it about matter now. i been really upset about things going on right now in my life. it's very tough and challenges for me. it something i can't even question about it and i can't even make my own judgement but i do care all the whole process. at the beginning it just small and now it getting bigger and it been a fixed now. i mean, people do change in just a minute right..sometimes it change it don't even take a second either its a smart choice or not but it just "CHANGE".. that how easy people can be in life.
  i trying my best too give the best but it seem like whatever i did or do it always wrong and selfish in their eyes, but honestly, i really have no idea anymore how to do and handle it so do tell me how to do it don't just sit there yelling at me cus it just won't get things better and telling me that "i don't understand". so make me understand about it. it really stress me out like forever. i really wish that i don't care it too much but i just can't cus i still believe it and i really hope i can change it. it took me to realize that how people really change and change for somethings that shouldn't be and change for someone that you just met and make those decision how childish and stupid. 
 i did my best and this is how i can go for you and fight for you, but if you gonna stick to it what can i do more. i can't fight anymore cus it about to give up and it about to take and move on. even we stay in same house and grow up together but someday there will a day you get married and seing you became someone husband and became father. that all matter. but if i could hope you be, then i wish you never choice this way and take your time and make a good choice of your life. cus it always yours.   

Sunday, 14 July 2013

Welcome the July 2013.

Yoohooo! Yeah..yeah..put your hands up in the air and feel it. so, July just another month we gonna go through before August. So fast how it feel with time flies this fast? well...i guess, everyone does feel the same way tooo right. time is running too fast, so we are, have to catch the time to make sure things going well and make sure we didn't left too much behind.

I been really busy, as you read my lately post, it all about busy..busy..busy..Work getting big and stress it getting beyond strong for me but i think i still can manage it well. so work life still in very good timing for me. but i must so far i does enjoy and learning is always fun,adventure and one of process of growing up. and the most awesome about the place i work was the colleague there was soo nice, kind, and caring. this is the first time i meet such a lovely person. nowadays it really rare to meet a good people and people good to you. so it such a bless to knowing them. i always..always thankful for them kindness and i always will remember them in my life. their just another part of my story that i will always kept in my memories. i dunno how to put a word to say how much i really appreciate what their give to me and help me. it just something i will always grateful and thankful and it such a great experience and journey with their. their just such a good people.

Talk about my friends, well..honestly i doesn't have many weird cus i always the one who talk alot things, scream like crazy people at home but surprisely i doent have many friends. and even on my phone contact list just a few..few..few people. Hahaha:D Believe or not it is! i guess, i just weird and hard to approach by people..some of them just work far from city, busy handle family business, travelling to other country.. so i hardly meet them so we just meet when there a time is everyone is free. ..hrmm...i am spending my whole time with reading and listen to music and watching a dram/movie or reality story of people life on YouTube so that my life. haha:P and make it more clear, yes..i ma Single lady with such a weird personality, crazy and somewhere dunno where i really belong too. but it never really stress me out until recently i found out that wah! i been living my life without having someone and this kind of feeling it just "Rolling" and "Rolling" deep and looking a best space to make things great. some people just saying that, ooh..your such a "Weird" person, how come someone like you haven't have boyfriend and at this age..! it's unbelievable! haha:P i does laugh hard when i hear this and i dunno how to react to that questions but one things for sure is at this moment i feel comfortable and yeah this is my very BEST ZONE and SAFE ZONE. i still need to stay in safe zone cus i still not brave enough to make another step to take a big chance. maybe someday i will...oooh.....

Monday, 1 July 2013

Officialy 23 now.! :) 30.05.2013

!!! :) ready to spread my wings tooooo gooo!

Hello! welcome myself to age 23... yoohooo!
stay good, awesome, and smileeeeeeee! :) Peace yo! 

Every year, we all share something very same which is "Birthday" or we call it the day you come to this world. 

 I think this a great way to remind yourself how many times have left till we really became something bigger by day by and year by year. Just wanna take this wonderful day to said, Thank you to my Parents for bringing me to this world and i always and forever thank you for everything that you been giving me till this day. Raise a kids always not a easy job to do but my parents did it and i really thankful for that.

Feeling the age at 23 year old, is something really scaring number for me. I dunno why people always get excited to enter the world of being 23 but as for me ofcourse i do feel that excited but i been really worry so much about everything. rather than said sad, i think the situation that i having right now is the answer for myself for being worry about everything. sometimes it about time how to handle and settle between the time have stuck in life. Time arrived tooOOooo Fast, and i didn't have much time to catch out the time that running so fast, sometime i just watch it pass does get me trauma just watch the time flies so fast. i mean, i have soo much things that i haven't done it yet, i just want to do everything's as soon as i really can till i break the word we call Limited. But everything we do , always there call we just a human being and i do believe that and i know whatever we did we just gonna give the very..very best to survive and stay strong in this life. right.

so enter the world of being age 23 does something awesome, gorgeous, wonderfully so i just gonna stay and live it every meaning full to myself.  just being a such wonderful person to myself and stay the very strong of me and i know god always lean me to the right way and with the permission he give i sure i gonna do fine with myself. after what going on in my life, i come to accept things step by step now and believe me it really hard to admit what has going on but with trying to accept it does the best way to get over it. it took my long..long..long time to accept soo for myself it work on me. seeing myself now, i does come such a long..long way to being who i am now so i really proud of myself and here now i became WOMAN and i really look forward what going to happen in future and how everything's. It getting harder but life always that harder, the more you get into it the more harder you can be

Live it while you still see everything's, cus whatever the view you see now it would bring you to understand things that you never know. 

 Live happily Alice! you can do it! :)